Saturday Short: The View from the Top of the Hill

photograph of a cemetery on a hill overlooking the ocean

“Why do the dead get a better view that we do?” Hollis asked as we cut through the cemetery on our way home from school.

“Shhhh!” I slapped his arm. “Don’t speak so loud. The dead can hear you.”

He frowned and slapped my arm harder. There would be a mark tomorrow. “The dead don’t hear nothing. They’re dead.” He stopped and stared across the graves, past the church spire, all the way down to the sea. It was a beautiful view, one that couldn’t be bought while alive and not fully appreciated when dead, and the sun made the ocean shine like a cut stone with colors impossible to describe and to believe if you’d never seen them.

Hollis placed his hand against his brow as if shading his eyes to watch for an approaching ship. “It’s stupid to waste land like this.”

I’d heard his father say that before, when I was over late helping him with his math homework. He was horrible at math. I crossed myself surreptitiously when no one was watching. It was bad luck to speak like that about the dead. Bad luck or stupidity, as my father would say with a shake of his head.

Hollis looked back at me to see if I would contradict him and, when I said nothing, he turned and continued down the hill. I followed after he’d gone a few paces, far enough away that I could whisper, “He doesn’t mean it. Enjoy your view.”

That night I crept out of bed once I heard my parents’ snores in the next room and checked every door and window to make sure they were latched. I hadn’t said anything against the dead, but everyone knows sometimes that doesn’t matter. Sometimes nothing does. Still, it was a beautiful view.

Saturday Short: Gate through the Garden at the End of the World

photo from a Japanese garden showing a gate and trees

There is a garden at the end of the world. Don’t ask me how I know there’s a garden at the end of the world. There are some questions that you shouldn’t ask. There are some questions that shouldn’t exist because of the fates of the world, but that is a discussion for another day.

There is a garden at the end of the world. It is quiet, serene, painted in shades of green. Oh, the trees change color, into riotous reds and autumnal oranges, when they feel like it. But mainly the garden exists in shades of green. The better to make us relax and forget that it is the end of the world.

There is a garden at the end of the world. There is also a gate. When you come to the end of the world and find yourself inside the garden, because everyone always does, you will see the gate. It is your choice whether to walk through it or not.

What’s on the other side of the gate? It looks like just more of the garden. But I’ve never seen anyone return. No, I’m not certain what’s on the other side. My path has led me there, yet.

Spending Our Days and Our Lives

We have sunshine where I live for the first time in what seems like weeks. I know it hasn’t been that long, but the rain in California has been intense this year and it is nice (and necessary) to have a break. I always feel more energetic when the sun is out, but I wrote out this week’s quote when it was raining because it reminds me to get on with life even when I feel like just curling up and doing nothing.

How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives. Annie Dillard

This is both profound and oh, so, simple, right? Our days make up our lives so we better spend our days doing what makes us create the life we want. I mean, that shouldn’t be hard, should it? But it seems like too often we let things get in the way of using our days in a way that is meaningful and productive. I know I’m guilty of fixating on work problems and conflicts or the dozen small tasks that I need to do, instead of focusing on whether I’m moving towards my goals and towards helping anyone in what I’m doing with my day.

So I need the reminder that our days create our lives. I need that reminder whenever I feel that time is going by too quickly and I don’t have enough time for those things that make life worth living for me: family and friends, time to create and to share, giving and laughing, listening to the birds, and walking without constantly looking at my watch.

I hope that you life your days the way you want to spend your life. Reframing my days in that way makes what I do have purpose and meaning, even if sometimes it seems futile. If you have any tips on what you do to make your days meaningful, even in the midst of busy work weeks, I’d love to hear them.

Also, if you have a chance, I highly recommend The Book of Joy by the Dalai Lama and Desmond Tutu with Douglas Abrams. It is a wonderful read and a reminder of what makes for a good, meaningful life. Plus, who doesn’t want to exist in a place of joy? No one I know. So I wish you a joyful day and a joyful life. Let’s create something wonderful, okay? 🙂

Saturday Short: What We Learn from the Pine

photograph of a pine branch with rain droplets

“What do we learn from the pine?”

I sighed. There were two kinds of questions that came from my mentor. The first, I never minded. These questions were straightforward, easy to answer as I was good at memorizing the various properties of plants and their uses, the meanings of different bird calls, and what the clouds foretold in the morning sky.

The second kind of questions, I minded. I minded greatly. While I was good at remembering practical things, philosophy and moral theories were not my strong suit. I was too literal and my mind didn’t bend those ways.

Perhaps if I ignored the question, my mentor wouldn’t keep asking.

“What do we learn from the pine?” my mentor asked again.

I looked up at her and stifled a sigh. The pine was beautiful. Its sap was useful for so many things, as were its needles and bark. The pines beside us were covered in water droplets from the last rain. While stunning, it didn’t jog my memory.

“I don’t know. What can we learn?” I asked, trying to head off a long, frustrating time.

My mentor smiled, “That’s what you’re here to find out.” Then she turned and went back to harvesting tubers, waiting for me to figure it out. She’d be waiting for a while.

Saturday Short: The Sun Flower

photography of flower with water droplets on it

“Those aren’t sunflowers,” Taliah said as she yanked her hand out of mine and pointed at the low plants covered in blooms that were the brightest thing on this gloomy day by far.

I sighed, but only inwardly. To let Taliah hear me sigh would lead to nothing but agony for the next hour. Agony for me, of course.

“Not sunflowers,” I said as I reached into my bag and pulled out the rolled up pouch containing seven slender vials. “Two words. Sun and flower.”

“That’s stupid.” She looked up at me, her braid almost lashing her in her face at her sudden movement. “Who’d name them the same thing?”

“They’re….” I stopped myself. There was no talking with her when she was in this type of mood. The one that said Momma could make her go with me and start to learn what she needed to become a grown woman who could be a useful member of the village, but she didn’t have to do anything else.

I unscrewed the top from the first vial and began the painstaking process of collecting the raindrops from the sun flowers’ petals. Each drop shimmered as it slid into the vial and I ignored Taliah’s dramatic huffs behind me as she kicked rocks into the overfull creek. I ignored her. It was best. Someday she might even need some of what was held in the vials I carefully placed back in my pouch. Perhaps someday she might even grow up. But perhaps that was too much to hope for and I alone would be left tending the village when Momma was gone.

The sun pierced the grey clouds and the sun flowers’ shook as one, the rain drops flying like gems in the sky and I sighed, audibly. One vial was better than none.

“Can we go now?”

I turned around and saw Taliah with her hands on her hips and I couldn’t avert the wave of anger I felt flash hot white like a sparking coal. If she’d helped we’d have two vials. She shrank back as I stood and said nothing as I began walking back towards the village. I’d never hurt her, but it didn’t mean I couldn’t be cross at her for being overindulged and self-absorbed. It might one day cost more than a vial of sun flower’s dew.

Saturday Short: The Red Chair

photograph of a red, Adirondack chair

When Maude went to sleep there wasn’t a chair on her lawn. But it was there when she pushed back the curtains hung above her kitchen sink.

“Well, shit.”

Her aged long-haired, short-whiskered orange tabby looked at her and yawned before going back to sleep. Clearly he would be no help and shouting expletives would only annoy him.

Maude brooded as she waited for the kettle to boil. If she had been outside, her head would have been shrouded with miniature rain clouds. Inside she simply fogged up the windows with her worry. To anyone outside this part of the valley, a chair wouldn’t mean anything except perhaps a delivery mix-up easily fixed with a call.

Not here.

A red chair meant trouble. Sure, it looked comfy enough to sit in, but that would indelibly mark her for death. As of now, she had a fright and a fighting chance. And Maude was a fighter. Ain’t no one going to prove her otherwise.

Sharing and Having

Well, it’s February already. Did anyone else feel like January went by in a hazy whirlwind and you’re not quite sure what happened? The world is way too interesting for my taste right now and it is hard to fell like there is time for art when there is so much else to do, so many others to help. So today feels like the right day to share this quote b Leonard Nimoy:

the miracle is this-the more we share, the more we have Leonard Nimoy

It makes me smile and remember that sharing truly does give us more. Not just talking about “stuff” either, but the important things like more compassion, more empathy, more knowledge that we are enough no matter how flawed our attempts to share and to care might be. In doing things to help others, we inevitably help ourselves and that’s a good thing.

The world may seem to be getting harsher and less caring, but there are so many good people in this world sharing and caring and helping. So we need to remember this—I need to remember this—to keep up my energy and to keep caring.

And our art is a part of this sharing. It’s important. I got back to creative writing on my next manuscript a few days ago and it felt wonderful. It felt right. I hope to have more to share soon.

Keep sharing, keep caring, and keep making your art. We need it. We really do.

 

 

Saturday Short: The Green Leaves

photograph of green leaves amidst purple leaves

“What do we do with these green leaves?” Flora’s mother asked her as they stood in front of the bush.

Flora twirled her fingers in her hair as she tapped her foot, buying herself time. There were too many plants with small, green leaves. How was she ever supposed to keep track of them all?

“Tea?” Her answer was more of a question than answer.

Her mother sighed and shook her head. Flora knew she wouldn’t get the answer out of her easily. There would be more questions. She felt like sighing herself.

“Are most of the leaves green?”

“No.” Flora failed to keep the annoyance out of her voice and shrunk back, but her mother appeared to ignore it. “There’s mostly those purple ones.”

“And what does that tell us?”

Flora bent closer to the plant and jumped back, running into her mother as the leaves snapped at her nose. Her mother’s laughter made her cheeks burn as if on fire, but Flora’s anger went out as fast as a green wood fire when she realized she knew this plant.

“Snap sharp leaf!” Flora yelled and the plant stopped snapping. “It’s snap sharp leaf.” She turned to look back at her mother.

“Correct. And it’s use?”

“Protection,” Flora said confidently. “It’s for protection.”

“Good.” Her mother patted her shoulder. “There’s hope for you yet.”

Saturday Short: When the Leaves Turn Golden

photograph of golden ginko leaves on tree branches

When the leaves turn golden, that’s when the wise are wary of trouble. Everyone knew that, even if most chose to not believe it.

Haley glared up at the branches festooned with their hundreds of golden leaves that shimmered and shook in the breeze. Just her luck that the leaves should turn now, when she was so close.

It would have been bad enough if just one tree had turned, but all she saw down the lane were trees wreathed in golden leaves. Haley shook her head. This was bad, more than bad, it was probably going to be catastrophic, whatever it was.

“Why aren’t your more specific with your warning?”

“Sorry, luv, I didn’t catch that.”

Haley turned and saw a woman looked at her with a curious expression on her face.

“Sorry, ma’am,” she said with a formal bow. “Just talking to myself. Beg your pardon.”

“That’s quite alright.” The woman patted her on the arm as she looked up at the leaves. “But I wouldn’t ask them quite so loud. Not when they’re golden.” She resumed toddling down the street.

Haley looked up again with a shiver and nodded. The woman was right. She’d just deal with whatever came whenever it did. That’s what she always did. Haley turned and hurried away from the trees. It was time to get to work.

Opinions and Thinking

Everyone has an opinion about everything, or at least it sure seems like that sometimes. Goodness knows I have opinions on lots of different things and I don’t think that’s a bad thing, but I do agree that one should base opinions in thought. So, it seemed appropriate with all that is going on in the world to share this quote:

An opinion should be the result of thought, not a substitute for it. Jef Mallett

Thinking, critical thinking, can be difficult. It can take time to sort out fact from fiction from deliberate falsehood. It can make a person’s brain hurt listening to all the swirling, ill-formed opinions racing across all forms of media.

So it is good to remember that we shouldn’t substitute opinion for thought. That perhaps, we should all do a little more research, a little more contemplation, before running head first into whatever argument or onto whatever soapbox we’re gunning for. We need to take time to think–it usually saves time and face in the long run anyway.

So I hope that you feel you have time to contemplate, to think, to reflect and that it helps you in your life and in your art. It’s been a slow start to my own art practices this new year, not least of all because I’ve gotten some touch of that nasty cold that’s been going around. But even a slow start means some progress and I’ve had time to think about what I want to accomplish in the new year and I hope you have to. There’s only eleven and a half months left to do something, and that’s not very long at all.

So here’s to thinking and sharing and creating. Thanks for reading and Saturday Shorts are returning this weekend, too. 🙂